Often I will be somewhere and the Lord will lay something heavily on my heart. If my journal isn't handy - I'll type it on my phone. Here are a few of those:
I find it so interesting when someone who grew up knowing God, decides they no longer want or need Him....whereas I, who grew up without God, can never again do life without Him. Genuinely. Do not be deceived; sin is only pleasurable for a season, and without God, this life is frighteningly miserable.
Part of me (ever the secret optimist) believes that maybe if I dig deeper and share more of my heart...revelation will come. That it may spur some hidden emotion to change. But, I cannot produce revelation in others and I cannot force a heart change. I can only accept this and pray, or change my circumstance. Both options are heart wrenching.
It cannot stay winter forever. My soul jumps and aches for the coming of Spring. I long to hear "Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away, for behold, the winter is past; the rain is over and gone. The flowers appear on the earth..." The prospect of this dreary and downtrodden season unraveling and melting into a season of new growth and freshness is - HOPE. Close your eyes. Breathe it in. Can you sense it? The warmth on the horizon, the melting of the snow, the fresh scent of Spring. One season is ending, and another is beginning; we must grasp onto that lovely promise.